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Secret #3

Learning to hate you seems to be so easy lately. Your attention is so completely on someone else now. It drives me nuts, because not all that long ago you were so into me. I loved it. The attention, the attention, the attention. Yes, I’m an attention whore and you gave it all to me.

But lately you’re on to another person. You message me every morning to tell me how great things are. Honestly I don’t give a flying rat’s ass how it’s going. Why you tell me - when we were so close to being so intimate… and now I’m relegated to friend-land. I fucking hate it.

Deep down inside I hope that this relationship bombs for you. So you come crawling back to me. You can be such an asshole and not even know you’re doing it. Or maybe you do, and I’m just so stupid for not telling you to get bent… screw off. Seriously - I want your relationship to go down in flames.

Secret #4

I’m not sure where to start… I am not happy with my job.  I freakin’ hate it right now.  It’s not always been that way.  I actually am really fearful that I might lose my job, because I don’t do anything… lately.  No one needs me.  I feel pretty useless.

Secret #5

I honestly think my emotions are on a total rollercoaster.  One minute I’m happy has ever with you and the next minute I want a divorce.  What the hell is wrong with me?  Maybe I need therapy?

Filed under: The Affair, Lost Love, Mental on April 4th, 2007